A while back I was banned on the BBS for reasons I didn't understand at the time, and i was sure i wasnt going to be able to post in topics or even make one ever again...but i messaged eyelovepoozy about the message and he calmly and diligently assured me that my ban was not permanate, and that I would be posting again by the end of the day!! He even told me that if i contacted him earlier, he would have lifted the ban entirely from the start, and that i should man up and learn from this. These words struck through me and made me see a whole lot about myself even, my entire life until now ive always been a beat-around-the-bush kind of person, and never really took accountability for my own actions. But now I see instead of letting some kind of ego force you to hide these things, instead use them as building blocks for a better foundation. Even though im still not entirely clear on why i was banned in the first place (I said >inb4 in a post, ive seen it all over so i dont see why it got me banned here but ive learned from this and im placing the block down of the foundation of not sucking in the BBS), but im sure with this token of knowledge i recieved ill be a better person as well as a better poster.

The funny thing is I thought that i have been permma banned, and i was really stressed. So stressed that I was crabby for 2 days and I ran out of my monthly Buspar prescription early. Im not even mad anymore im just so happy ill be able to post again in 8 hours!!!

Eyelovepoozy is the first competent mod ive encountered, he was the one who issued this ban and it took a lot of lurking to find his page from the BBS, but then talking to him I saw nothing like id ever expected, im sure all of the other staffers are amazing to. Though i've only talked to 3 moderators (counting Eyelovepoozy) that actually did anything. The other 2 I contacted (which will remain unnamed) did nothing as I sent them links to topics being flooded with the most disturbing things ive ever seen. One of them replied later (after it was handled) saying thank you but the other one didnt even reply, and keep in mind that they were BOTH ONLINE at the time.

Well, sure was alot to take in for one day, but in 8 hours from now ill be back in the BBS! Woo hoo!!!